I am very depressed

This will be short....

I'm against Matt Smith, okay? I'm sorry if people disagree but I just don't see it. Call me prejudiced; I probably am. I mean, after Tennant's last line ("I don't want to go!") it was pretty much obvious to me that I wouldn't be able to cope with the loss. And then comes Matt Smith, pulling his hair and screaming "I'm a girl!" and I couldn't help but think "You sure sound like one"...

My (our) new Doctor

As we reach the end of an era (if you'll allow the expression) I feel a bit gloomy... I admit I haven't watched any of the old Doctors in action -yet- and I bow my head in shame. But I've been really hooked up on the show ever since I saw the first episode, starring Chris Eccleston who was FANTASTIC! He looked great when he got mad and personally, I liked that he seemed so willing to exterminate the Daleks but in the end decided not to.

Now, when he started saying goodbye to Billie Piper, I think I let a tear drop. Then, David Tennant shows up and I'm determined to keep my frown as I realise that with every episode he's growing on me... I thought that was weird, for who could replace Eccleston in my heart?

Of course, he didn't replace him but I couldn't help but love Tennant eventually. He brought his own flavor to the show. Tennant's Doctor was arrogant in a more obvious way and you couldn't even dislike him for that attitude! And as all the characters we've loved in the past, I foolishly convinced myself that he would stay forever. By forever I mean, until the day he died. I knew that wouldn't really happen, obviously! But was there any harm in hoping?

Apparently, there was. Because after three years, someone else is coming to claim the Doctor's crown. Someone I can't say I like. I don't hate him either but there is something about him that makes me go "meh" every time. Yes, I wasn't pleased with Tennant at first either but it's not the same feeling. With Tennant, it was "Your puppy eyes can't fool me! You'll never take Eccleston's place! Or will you?". Now, Matt Smith... With him it's more like "Ewww! Get away from me! Away, I said!"


Maybe I'm too old to change my habits. Maybe I'm just a bitchy bitch. (I won't deny that.) Should I give him a chance to prove his innocence? I will. But I doubt he'll ever win me like the previous two did. I'm giving him a chance because that's how good I am. :P
He'll have to work hard though, if he wants to be our new Doctor. And by "our" I mean all of us. Not just the ones who already like him!

As I've said before and will now say again, I'll do my best to like him but can he please, please, please lose the bow tie? Somebody said they liked it. "Gimme a Doctor that doesn't HAVE to be fashion conscious!" were the exact words. None of them were ever fashion conscious! (I distinctly remember a disgusting, looooong scarf and a vegetable!) Not one of them! But they did it in style.

So, Matt... Make me like you. I dare you!

As of January 1st...

... I am 25 years old. I don't feel any different. I've said that before, I am no better and no wiser; the only fact I can be sure of. Is 25 supposed to be a big event? I remember when I was still 17 and counting the days until New Year's Day, when I would turn 18 and I was so excited! But when it finally happened, it didn't seem so important anymore. I was 18 and I was the same and the world was the same and nothing had changed.

That was the day I decided I don't like my birthday. I stopped celebrating them (although I always welcome the presents because I am a material girl...) and I stopped getting excited. People think I am strange. I never said I wasn't. So, I made a list! (Two lists, to be accurate.)

Good things about birthdays:
- Presents (of course!)
- Getting dressed up and...
- ... having a party or...
- ... taking your friends out to celebrate
- having lived another year
- birthday cakes
- people who remember you and wish you a "happy birthday"

Bad things about birthdays:
- having lived another year (barely making it through)
- people who you haven't talked to in ages, suddenly remember you and wish you a "happy birthday"
- people who insist that you have to celebrate even if you don't feel like it
- people who keep saying that you are now older but treat you like you're no more than 5
- the world, being the same
- yourself, being the same
- getting older (I don't care about that really but it should be on the list)
- looking older (the previous comment applies here)
- presents you don't like (it's the thought that counts but still...)
- awful or ridiculous birthday cakes


Maybe both my lists could be longer but I don't want people to think I'm far more strange than I actually am, mainly because the second list would be the one getting longer.

Having said that, my birthday this year was comfortable enough, despite the fact that I would rather have stayed in bed and done nothing and talked to no one. But I am a year older and I keep wondering about life: Is that all? Meh... :)


Happy New Year!